There is another drug called ibudilast which is being studied in Los Angeles. Dating is still in the horizon but has not been a priority. I participate in the LGBT Center Recovery Program and attend meetings at the LGBT center. My routine is split between work, sharing time with friends and family members, my dog Neo, and completing a memoir I started when I was in Federal prison. (TRIGGER WARNING, EXPLICIT DEPICTION OF DRUG USE.) Already there has been some recognition of the problem by film makers such as Michael Rice (Partyboi) and the ACT UP meth working group in NYC is seeking funds to conduct forums and draw attention to the problem.
Yes, this has recently been recognized and it’s going to take members of the black gay male community to develop strategies to combat this drug from decimating their community. Those of us that have somehow survived the meth epidemic can help serve as role models and help those that are still struggling and prevent those that have never tried it from ever experimenting in with it.Īnd it’s been seeping into LGBT communities of color. I believe we as gay men can and are slowly pulling through it. Meth continues to intercalate itself in our sexual lives, destroying and undermining our personal relationships. I’ve made reconnections with my family members who I had neglected in the past and have a cadre of new and old sober friends that have my best interests at heart.Īs you’ve probably noticed, meth addiction among gay men is as bad, maybe worse, than it was three years ago. How is sobriety going? Has it been tough? The only way I can make amends with myself and others is by maintaining my sobriety and helping others that are still struggling. How could I survive AIDS, and promise myself I would live in honor of my friends who died, only to stick needles in my arm? It’s baffling to me, still.įorgiveness has been a long process. I still have a hard time forgiving myself for my addiction.
#ELTON JOHN IM STILL STANDING METH HOW TO#
I found out about Spencer’s death while reading How to Survive a Plague, the book by David France, while in prison. I actually didn’t know he was using meth. Within four years, of course, Spencer himself would be dead, at least in part due to his own drug addiction. He was saying what a problem drugs had become for AIDS survivors and providers. Re-reading France’s profile of you, I was stunned to see (famous HIV treatment activist) Spencer Cox quoted. I don’t mean to embarrass you by saying that.
The piece describes a very sad, crumbling human being. I was in my own active addiction during that time.Īfter that story I had a period of relative abstinence, but I relapsed and unfortunately fell prey to a dealer that set me up in an entrapment that led to my arrests. It’s strange talking to you like this, because David France’s 2008 piece about you freaked me out so much. The dispersion of old friends, colleagues, co-workers away from the city or away from their old institutions, jobs and agencies.ĭo you mind if we revisit some of your “wreckage years” for a moment? The streets of your old neighborhood, that sort of thing?Įverything. The changes that I’ve observed even in the relatively short hiatus of my absence are jaw dropping. Having been locked up for 38 months made me appreciate my freedom, my health, family and friends, and helped me re-establish my connection to my Higher Power. I will be turning 60 by the latter part of this year.ĭo you see time differently, having spent three years incarcerated? But it did and thankfully I'm still here today.Thanks for the compliments but I feel very old these days. I could feel my sanity lifting off, and I wasn't sure it would come back again. During that period of losing my sight, I was also losing my mind. Rufus added to Q magazine: "I lost my sight for one or two hours. While the 36-year-old star claims it was Elton who persuaded him to seek therapy for drug addiction, his problems got so bad, he even temporarily went blind. On the one hand there's this big pomp and circumstance, but really beneath it all there's this very sweet little guy who's constantly feeling very insignificant, which is ironic of course. He said: “I don't think people are aware of how shy he is. Singer Rufus Wainwright – who sought guidance from the ‘Rocket Man’ hitmaker in 2000 when he was struggling with an addiction to crystal meth – claimed the flamboyant star is very quiet away from his public persona and has little belief in his own abilities. Sir Elton John is a very shy man apparently.
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